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Two million people are cheering her name, 750 million eyes are upon her. She’s smoothing out her silk, ivory colored wedding dress embroidered with pearls and mother-of-pearl sequins. She is being transported to St. Paul’s Cathedral by five military police officers in a fairytale-like coach. Keeping her composure, she steps out of the stagecoach in her Cinderella-like wedding slippers. She walks up the steps of the Cathedral, head held high, the Spencer family tiara decorating her gorgeous short, blonde hair. As she enters the dome, all eyes are drawn to her glowing, innocent features and the twenty-five-foot train trailing behind; the opening song is played by one of the three orchestras that her fiancé has chosen. The date is July 29, 1981, marking the wedding of Prince Charles to Lady Diana. Diana knew that becoming Princess of Wales was going to be a great responsibility, one that couldn’t be taken lightly. She strongly believed it was either going to be a fairy-tale dream come true or a total nightmare; either way, it was too late that day for her to change her mind.1
Prince Charles and Diana had a rocky start to their marriage. Charles grew up with Royal ideals ever since he was born; duty comes before anything else, even if that means sacrificing his marriage. Diana wanted the love that she read about in her romance novels; she often daydreamed about finding her tall, handsome prince charming as a child. Diana came from a broken home; her parent’s divorce was publicized; she grew up being taken care of by several nannies. This left her with a sense of longing for affection and stability in her adult life. She expected her significant other to tend to her emotional needs the way her parents never could.2Charles was absent for a lot of the first year of their marriage: he tended to his royal duties, participated in shooting, polo, and painting pictures. He lived a comfortable, no strings attached life with Diana that first year. Once, he even admitted to his past liaisons with some married women. They were deemed a “safer choice” because they would keep quiet—due to having families and husbands. Charles assumed Diana would fit perfectly into his lifestyle like a missing puzzle piece. This was not the case, as Diana and he had very different forms of entertainment and pastimes; there was also a rather large age gap of fourteen years.3 During their engagement, when Diana was nineteen and Charles was thirty-three, Prince Charles received a package. Diana, already suspecting Charles was hiding something, found a gold bracelet addressed to ex-lover Camila Parker-Bowles with the initials “F” and “G” intertwined; the initials were of the nicknames they had given to each other.4 “This was about two weeks before we got married…. So rage, rage, rage! ‘Why can’t you be honest with me?’ But, no, [Prince Charles] cut me absolutely dead.”5 Charles denied the accusations, making her feel paranoid and leaving her with second thoughts about marriage. Diana claimed she had considered canceling the wedding, discussing the situation with her two sisters, both responding with “your face is on the tea-towels so you’re too late to chicken out now.”6
The public viewed the wedding with a lot of admiration, so much that it blindsided them. The public was completely unaware that Diana could not handle the public scrutiny; her face was on every magazine cover and she was all the media talked about. Princess Diana was portrayed as calm and very put-together; she carried herself in a way that didn’t expose her weaknesses. This was the very mindset of the royal family, any form of unwanted exposure was immediately hidden or covered up, and she learned this a little too late. The wedding that was perceived as “a ceremony that bore the weight of centuries of national tradition” had a tragic story behind it.7
Diana would frequently visit the kitchen where she would participate in binge eating behaviors, such as eating endless bowls of ice cream and special snacks at request. Staff and friends were concerned about Diana’s dietary habits; she was so thin despite consistently raiding the fridge and eating excessive amounts of food in one sitting. Although they would frequently see her overindulge in food, Diana would make herself throw up five to six times a day. Diana claimed that her disorder was first triggered because of a comment Prince Charles made.8 “My husband put his hand on my waistline and said, ‘Oh, a bit chubby here, aren’t we?’ and that triggered off something in me—and the Camilla thing, I was desperate…. I remember the first time I made myself sick.”9
Diana started slipping into the deep end; her first pregnancy was tough on her body. Apart from morning sickness, Diana suffered from bulimia. Bulimia nervosa is characterized by recurrent episodes of binge eating followed by compensatory behaviors to prevent weight gain by self-induced vomiting, fasting, or excessive exercise. The onset of bulimia nervosa can be due to stressful life events and usually develops between adolescence and early adulthood. There is an increase in depressive symptoms and depressive disorders in affected individuals as well as a higher suicide risk. Mood disturbance begins at the same time or during the development of the eating disorder, but in other individuals, predates the illness.10
Diana became desperate; she would run around with a lemon knife. Diana knew something was wrong with her but didn’t know how else to ask for help. When she did reach out for help, Charles thought Diana was crying wolf and dismissed her threats. Charles became alarmed and overwhelmed by Diana’s frequent mood swings, her consistent crying, and obsession with his old mistress, Camilla Parker Bowles. He believed that she was being immature and seeking attention, so instead of helping his wife, he went riding on the Sandringham estate. Diana almost felt challenged by his response, so at two months pregnant, Diana placed herself at the top of a wooden staircase in Sandringham and threw herself down the stairs.11 “Very, very difficult pregnancy indeed. Sick the whole time, bulimia and morning sickness…. I didn’t know which way to turn at all…. Charles said I was crying wolf and I said I felt so desperate, and I was crying my eyes out, and he said, ‘I’m not going to listen. You’re always doing this to me. I’m going riding now.’ So I threw myself down the stairs.”12
Some could claim that Diana was immature and naive and in reality, she was just a child. Diana had just become a young adult when they were married; she still had an illusion of a perfect marriage, one that wouldn’t suffer from difficulties. Her mindset was heavily influenced by her childhood; Diana’s parents’ troubled marriage and their frequent fights, even after their divorce. She didn’t want her marriage to end up like her parents. Diana believed that a Royal marriage would complete the pretty picture she painted in her head, it couldn’t possibly be any less than perfect—after all, that is what she had read in novels.13
At this point, Diana knew that she wasn’t going to get what she wanted or what she needed: stability and compassion. Instead, she was being scorned and her feelings were minimized. “I was thrown into the deep end,” she said of royal life. “Nobody ever helped me at all.” This incident was one of many cries for help during their first year of marriage.14
Diana made several other threats to her life; she began engaging in self-mutilation. In one incident Diana threw herself against a glass display cabinet at Kensington Palace and shortly after, slashed her wrists with a razor blade. Even during an argument with Prince Charles, she picked up a penknife and cut her chest and thighs.15 Still, Diana kept up a happy-go-lucky persona for the public and continued her duties as Princess of Wales. In the midst of a troubled time, she grew and matured; she found herself. Even if Charles solely wanted to please his parents by marrying Diana when his heart belonged to someone else, she was beloved by so many and the public saw her as one of their own. Diana was one of the only Royals that didn’t make the masses feel like less than they are.16 She was able to find herself through the volunteer work she engaged with and by connecting to the public.17
Diana was perceived as having it all, being the “It Girl” only to be revealed that within those palace walls, she was living a nightmare.
- Anne Matheson, “A Day of Splendour and Romance,” Australian Women’s Weekly (2018): 48. ↵
- Barbara Cartland, “Royal Marriage: When Life isn’t a Romantic Novel,” Newsweek 120 (1992): 72. ↵
- A Biographical Encyclopedia, 2002, s.v. “Women in World History,” 591. ↵
- Andrew Morton, Diana: Her True Story (New York: Pocket Books, 1992), 90. ↵
- Andrew Morton, “Diana’s Secret Tapes,” People 88 (2017): 88. ↵
- Andrew Morton, Diana: Her True Story (New York: Pocket Books, 1992), 91. ↵
- Barbara Cartland, “Royal Marriage: When Life isn’t a Romantic Novel,” Newsweek 120 (1992): 72. ↵
- Andrew Morton,Diana: Her True Story (New York: Pocket Books, 1992), 96. ↵
- Andrew Morton, “Diana’s Secret Tapes,” People 88 (2017): 88. ↵
- American Psychiatric Association, Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders Fifth Edition (Arlington, VA: American Psychiatric Association, 2013), 345-347. ↵
- Andrew Morton, Diana: Her True Story (New York: Pocket Books, 1992), 104-105. ↵
- Andrew Morton, “Diana’s Secret Tapes,” People 88 (2017): 88. ↵
- Barbara Cartland, “Royal Marriage: When Life isn’t a Romantic Novel,” Newsweek 120 (1992): 72. ↵
- Andrew Morton, “Diana’s Secret Tapes,” People 88 (2017): 88. ↵
- Andrew Morton, Diana: Her True Story (New York: Pocket Books, 1992), 105. ↵
- Martha Duffy, “Fractured Fairy Tale,” Time Magazine 147 (1996): 60. ↵
- Encyclopedia of World Biography, 2004, s.v. “Diana Princess of Whales,” 531. ↵
102 comments
Edith Santos Sevilla
Princes Diana as mentioned in the article can be seen as a women that had everything, but appearances are not always true. She faced her own troubles and insecurities and it was triggered by her husband. While I was reading the article I was thinking how a lot of times the public believes that royals or celebrities have a perfect life, but it is not always true. It is sad that she faced many problems and people, especially her husband did not believe her. I admire how despite all of her problems she was kind to people and showed respect to everyone without making then feel like they are any less. The article is very interesting and I enjoyed reading it.
Kasandra Ramirez Ferrer
It is really sad how Princess Diana dies at such a young age with a whole life in front of her. Princess Diana was known for having such a charismatic and warm personality and also known to be one of the few royal members to break or not follow strict and very tight tradition/regulation royals must follow. With a hard childhood and marriage, Princess Diana managed to still be a nice and decent human being despite of her role as princess and mother of a family.
Raul Vallejo
I’ve always known about the royal family and how important image and reputation is for them.. Seeing how Princess Diana was wiling to risk all that for her own happiness is inspiring. It’s awesome to see that she did what was best for herself after being treated so poorly, but devastating to see what happened after, especially when no one really knows the truth.
Pablo Ruiz
I have also heard about the Royal family and princess Dianna. I never knew about where she came from or the struggles she faced while princess. I found it interesting how one event in her life triggered her eating disorder. I did not anything about her but this article did a very good job at showing who she was and how she was loved by everyone.
Priscilla Poorbaugh
I did not know that much about princess Diana until reading this article. It is so sad that she went through so much as a child, it seemed to really affect her. It makes me so angry that Prince Charles ruined her self esteem mentally. She seemed like she was a great person with a pure soul. Being royal is not always rainbows and butterflies, there is a lot that they go through that we do not know about.
Kasandra Ramirez Ferrer
I’ve always known the royal family and who princess Diana was and about her terrible death. Princess Diana had a terrible life while growing up and it didn’t get better when she got married. She broke a lot of royal laws and regulations nobles had to follow but Diana was a person who refused to obey those medieval traditions and that got her to live in constant disagreement with those she lived within the walls of the palace she lived. It’s so sad to know she attempted to take her life and how she hurt herself but I think we should remember her as someone who made a difference when she was expected to obey laws and traditions.
Marco Montes de Oca
I had heard of Princess Diana before but I never knew her entire story and what exactly happened. It made me so sad reading what happened to her and this article explained what happened very well. After I read this article, I am left wanting to know more about her and more about her background. It is a really fascinating story.
Margaret Maguire
Before reading this article, I did not know anything about who Princess Diana was or her history. This article was really informative and I learned a lot. She became the wife of Prince Charles on July 29th, 1981 at the age of 19. She struggled with neglect though out her childhood and life as a princess. She also suffered heavily with an eating disorder through her pregnancy. Her troubled childhood transferred into her adult life as a princess.
Nelly Perez
The name of Princess Diana would come and go except there was not much that I knew about her. Her childhood was sad. Her parents’ divorced being spread out into the world made her look bad and she did not receive a lot of love from them. She really was hoping that someone would love her. We often dream about a fairy tale as an escape from the troubles within our lives. It’s sad to hear that Diana experienced eating disorders and her husband did not love her.
Brianna Trevino
After reading this article I defiantly would love to learn more about Princess Dana. Before reading this I knew little to nothing about her only that she seemed to have a fairly tale life. It interesting to read that Diana was a regular girl before she came princess she never grew up in a royal family beforehand but still suffered behind closed doors with her marriage.